Yes I have a real thing too.
And yes I know.

It IS PINK.
But hei!. I love it.
And it is all about HOW I feel and want, right...?.
Right!!!.

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Ejnoy!.
(In English and in Estonian).

I've gone totally insane. I can't put down pencils and pens. I just MUST draw/paint all the time. continuously. and I even like it.

Yesterday very late at evening I started with new paintings series. First one is not finished yet, but I'm working on it. And this is called Ice.

There are something about abstract patterns. And colours. And of course the paper gives a lot. Like on the first one I used red cardboard. I use gouache: blue, yellow on blue and white.

I hope soon I'll add picture(s) here too. I just need someone to come over to my place and photo shoot them. ^^

Others will be (i hope, but my mood changes so often then the titles of the pictures may change a lot) Fire, Earth, Wind, Air, Water, Birds. And so on.

I write songlyrics for my good friend. He's on work and his wife is in school, for exams. They both are on of the greatest friends of mine.

I've been here, in Tartu since May 26, and I just cant leave. I feel comfortable and safe here. But my real home, in Ki-Nõ... I just dont call it as a home. 'Cause it is more like prison there. And I just relay on a thought: I'm really truly homeless.

But about those lyrics. The title is: "I kill my emofriend today". And the start looks good. Event though my friend told me that they have the tune for it already. So i'm writin' the lyrics, and i havent heard the music. but it is okay. i can manage.

yes. i can.

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"I have special way, special spacetime
How to treat my dearest emofriend
Between the walls of flies & glass ceiling
I kill my emofriend today"

I'm here, between the line and the spot. And the God have spoken to me on 30th March. Today is the last day of the count. Today is the 59th day. Today happens something.

On 30th i got the message.

On 30th i got scared, but then i knew. It is the good thing thats gonna happen. So.

I'm free to fly. I'm travelin' trough time and space. I'm gonna be insane, when i've left the earth.

once, i'm goin' home.

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